eats grass: The life and times of a whirl-wind revolutionary

Winter has set in.

The days are shorter, and colder. Bitter cold. Bone chillingly cold.

But that doesn't bother me. I am in the process of becoming something truly great and wonderful (what that is I don't know yet, but eventually it'll happen and I'll just know it!)
So the weather is never troublesome or upsetting to me . It's raining? Big deal- I'll get an umbrella and my galoshes. It's cold? I'll bundle up and make sure I have my tea. Human beings ability to adapt is what has kept us alive (amongst other things) for the past couple thousand years.

I am not letting this season get me down. It's not easy though because I am not immune to the down side of the season. I am more easily perturbed, more lazy, and definately a sucker for 'hibernating'. This isn't like the way a bear hibernates (waking in the springtime all svelt and ready to chow down). I'm talking no holds barred eating, and laying about. It's bad. Lately I've been eating a whole onslaught of terrible things and then just as soon as I have vowed to go to the gym, I fall into the worst kind of food coma. The television-food coma. All those great things on TV to DVR!!! Of course I need to watch them before the DVR gets full! OF COURSE.
For now none of it has shown up on my butt. And I suppose the few times I have made it to the gym *read: once a week*, have staved off the extra calories...But it's not about that. I'm a masochist who needs to get into tip top shape by January first. I'm running a 5 mile race. I've said it in too many public forums AND to my boss, and co-workers. Nothing will motivate you like having a blabber mouth and being a stickler for integrity.

Also, I miss my family. Not that I was ever a clingy home-body. I have a really solid relationship with both of my parents. Never one to over share, they don't know (or need to know) about some of the more detailed and interesting parts of my life (you know, the parts that make stories juicy, jokes funny, and most sailors blush....). But we're close never the less. The reason why I miss my family is because most of the time, I don't feel that I have one. And it's made me a bit cynical.My parents got divorced a little more than three years ago. It's fine, and they're better apart- but they both got remarried so fast, that I hardly have gotten used to them being apart. To make matters worse, I live really far from them both. My mom is 3 hours away, and my schedule doesn't allow for me to see her that often, and my dad is in Florida. Both of them have these new lives, and even though I'm grown- I miss having time together as a family. It's happened a few times, and it's be AWKWARD. Thats because of the new additions to their lives being there. Not that they aren't nice people- They just aren't my family.

So now when I see people getting married, I think to myself, "gee, it's either them or me who's getting divorced". Yuck right? I have to work at making that thought turn into something else. FAST. It's ok to feel negatively of course, but I send that right along. I need to burn some mental sage.

And now I have a plan to balance out all of this bear-like behavior. It is my CHOICE to not let the season (and sadness about my parents divorce) make me fussy and unpleasant. It's my choice to get closer and closer to ok with the twists and turns of my life.

Part of my revolution to change the world and make it better, includes changing myself and making ME better.

To change the world all you have to do it make choices. I am choosing to boycott certain companies (as you may have seen in a previous blog), and making certain food choices, to make the world better. To make myself better I am committing to living a colorful, and real life. I welcome all the blessings and interesting people and things that will come into my life. So be it. The next year is going to be life changing for certain. In a most positive way!!

On top of my photo-hunts (which will increase in frequency since I have taken some days off from work and plan on making excellent use of them), I will also be finishing more of my projects that have been stowed away for over a month. Finishing a few paintings, fabric projects ( a bunting inspired by a fellow blogger) crocheted cuffs jewelry, new years cards and finally getting a proper portfolio together. I always get so motivated, but lately something has been making me feel the need to 100% follow through. Which isn't always the case so it's a nice change.On top of that, I am going to aim to be a runner. Not because of the goal to run a marathon, but because it's not something that I had ever thought that I could do.
And I'm re-learning the clarinet. For the next few weeks, before I sign up for lessons I am practicing half an hour ever day. When I have proper lessons I will most likely practice for longer, but not every day. We'll see.

So part of my revolution is making time to heal myself. Not a bad step. It's important to take care of yourself, because if you don't who is going to? Sometimes it's not about healing, but enriching. Which is just as important. When you aren't wounded you still have to grow and better yourself.

Speaking of taking care of ones self, I took tomorrow off. Mostly so I can bake all sorts of goodies to send out to people. SO tonight I will make some holiday cards(why buy when you can hand make right?), and get the ingredients together for my bake-a-thon. Pictures to follow. AND tomorrow night I'm going to an awesome Hanukkah party (also pictures to follow).

DID SOMEBODY SAY PICTURES? See below for some more pictures from my portfolio.